n'tasha

 

 

used to not eat them, now with shame I do

but I stay away from the hard to chew

you quiet down at nighttime but I kick my leg

until you get the idea

out on a man invents love in a girl

when pushed together

a clothed embrace would work better

pulling hair from the root, at the desk

a new signature to help end this

remove the A, an apostrophe will wipe clean this catastrophe

and now I'm clean, reborn at 13

and now I'm clean, out from underneath

I rinse you down the drain

 

I danced around the questions and gave answers blown on a kiss

so many disadvantages to being shaped like this

but I am not what I say I am most of the time

you could lay me down

I could try not to frown

clothes on the ground

your name out loud

instruct me what to do

I could sweat it out for you

but you wouldn't look my way the next day

we could hold hands but you and me are not one

we could slow dance but in your defense

you never learned the steps

a slap's intention untrue but what else is there to do

to disconnect my veins from you

please don't think me evil for wishing you regret

 

holding me down, ego on my throne

wishing I had the trust in me

to lower myself off of my horse

and send him far away

I won't pick your pocket, only your brain

scraping, searching for anything

proof of life, proof of love

proof of all that I've made up